October, 2002: 48 posts.
My Poetical Friend 2002 Oct 01
I myself read a version of Two Ships. How do I get to meet so many wonderful talented people? I don’t know. But I try to meet people. Getting out into the world is a good thing.
It’s funny, one of the best pieces of advice I got from my father when Jenny left me was that I should be writing, journaling, expressing myself. He said that such activity would be healthy and therapuetic.
He was 100% right.
Site Launch! 2002 Oct 01
Potential clients, check my clean code and hire me. No, really.
Okay, proposals to work on that are very overdue. Back to work.
Quote of the Day 2002 Oct 03
path:
follow path;
gate:
open gate,
through gate,
close gate.
– Dr. Stephen Falken, WarGames
This may not make any sense. This post is only for me. 2002 Oct 03
And now I am thinking of a woman who I have known for two weeks. It’s like a lifetime. It’s like an eyeblink.
I wonder, what is love??
And now I must go to sleep.
Onward
Unprecedented 2002 Oct 05
The fondue was really awesome. It was pricey, but awesome. We dipped bread and veggies and apples in a garlic-y cheese fondue pot as the first course, along with salads. The second course was various meats (marinated chicken, top sirloin, shrimp, lobster) and vegetables (mushrooms, potatoes, zucchini, carrots) which you place in a special broth that’s boiling. You cook your own food, and they give you an array of sauces. This was all at Forever Fondue in Mission Valley. It was a social fun food thing. None of this is unprecedented.
The dessert was various fruits and some cake and cheesecake which we dipped or drizzled in melted milk chocolate from the fondue pot. Highly yummy. This also is not unprecedented.
After, we went and saw the very funny movie Barbershop (Cedric the Entertainer cracks me up). It had us all laughing! I really like Ice Cube as an actor. The movie was maybe a little predictable, but the textures of what feels like real life. While I’m not black, I remember going to the barbershop as a teenager and getting the same kind of comfort and banter you can only get at a barbershop. As to the reaction the movie has gotten from “black leaders,” I really like Oliver Willis’ How “Barbershop” Exposed Jesse & Al, and having now seen it, I couldn’t agree more with Oliver. Again, none of the above is unprecedented.
As Jennifer said in her journal, the Fondue Foursome was unique. It was unique in that the “party of four” consisted of my good good and longtime friend Erin (we worked at the San Diego Public Library together in the late 1980’s); Jennifer, the wife from whom I’m separated and will, we have decided, divorce; and my new girlfriend, Leah came. Yes, it sounds strange. We remarked that someone should be filming this or that it’s like something from a Woody Allen movie, but really, it was unremarkable in how it looked. We got along wonderfully. Jennifer and I have come to this interesting space where we are good good friends. We agree that we no longer want to have a relationship that is marital. We have gone through counseling, and speak and have spoken at length about what we want for the future. For neither of us does that future include a world where Joe and Jennifer are married. Having deep knowledge of that is a blessing for both of us, and it took quite some time to realize it. At the beginning of the separation I desperately wanted her back, and she wanted nothing to do with me. We went to counseling, and later, she wanted me back, and I found myself not wanting her back. As we have spent more time hanging out as friends, we realize that neither of us really wants the other back. Friends, yes. Husband and wife, no. Anyone I or Jenny or Leah or Erin told about this particular Friday night at Fondue and Movies before the fact did not believe it. So I suppose that it really is unprecedented.
Which brings me to say something more about Leah. She’s a wonderful person, and I have not known her very long at all. It is true that we have moved very fast, and we realize that danger and are attempting to turn the pot down so we don’t boil over. Neither of us wants to get scalded. But I know that we have a wonderful time together, we are both creative in a visual way, and when I look into her eyes there’s a familiarity there that I can’t say I’ve ever felt before. My Mother, who definitely reads this journal, has warned me of this concept of “glimmerance” – that new love blinds. She’s right, and is backed up by my counselor, who warns me to slow down. She describes new love as a kind of temporary insanity. So my new girlfriend and I feel like sailors on the sea, trying to find a way out of the fog of newness, and see where we stand when we can see each other clearly and rationally. The irrationality and mania of new love is wonderful, but it is not, uh, encouraging of rational decision-making. Some may say that the Fondue party was a bad idea to begin with, but as it was not based in malice or a desire to create jealousy or enmity, I can’t see how it was a bad thing. We had a great time, I think.
And so it goes, my unique life with unexpected things happening all the time. I had been quite nervous about it all, but life will surprise you when you’re honest and open your heart.
I’m working on this theory about stupid/fearless. That when you open your heart and are honest with people you’re in this stupid/fearless mode. You must be prepared for rejection, for bad feelings, but if you open your heart to people who are coming also from a place of honesty and openness, the risk in being stupid/fearless goes way down, and things are stupid melts away, and it’s fearless – fearless truth, and fearless honesty. If it all is based on respect, it is good.
And things are good. I realize with every waking hour how lucky I am to have the friends and family that I have.
Onward.
Religion 2002 Oct 07
Likewise, I also have put to words my own feelings. I have received much feedback via this journal on the subject of God, faith, and religion.
It’s important to remind you that I have the UTMOST respect for people of faith. When I worked in the hospital I saw very well that faith can bring strength and comfort to the afflicted and to those who are experiencing loss. I do not have any disdain for faith as practiced in love. I definitely have a problem with faith that intrudes on others in a way that’s aggressive. Gentleness is a positive attribute in religion, I think. Gentleness manifests itself in compassion, in empathy, in love, in caring, in understanding people. I think I try and live my life that way.
Yesterday was very intense because I realize something about myself. I found myself profoundly moved by a web page. I was researching Leah’s faith, the faith she desires to return to, and a word I had heard my father use popped into my head. The word was “freethinker.”
I am a freethinker.
The words on this page: What is a Freethinker? ring so true to me. I must say that I don’t agree with every word on that page.
Some parts I can affirmatively agree with are these:
What do Freethinkers Believe?
Freethinkers attach much more importance to the ‘why’ of belief than to the ‘what.’ Freethinkers believe in the sort of human understanding that naturally follows from a careful and rational consideration of the relevant factual evidence. With regard to the natural world of human experience, therefore, freethinkers regard the scientific method as the proper approach and scientific knowledge as the most reliable sort of human understanding. Freethinkers also acknowledge that there is an inner, private, subjective world of human experience. But they also recognize that our feelings and emotions cannot and should not be the basis of what we believe about the reality of the world which all human beings share.
How Can Life Have Meaning for Freethinkers?
Freethinkers believe that if life is to have authentic meaning, they must create it or discover it for themselves. To live life in compliance with or in obedience to someone else’s purpose, even the unknowable purpose(s) of a god or gods, is to be an unthinking slave. Freethinkers, therefore, look for and find meaning in their daily lives: in their efforts to learn, to grow, to understand, to help others, and to try, at least, to leave the world perhaps a little better place than they found it.
How Can Freethinkers Have Hope Without A Belief In An Afterlife?
Freethinkers consider this life as the only one we can be sure of having. They regard it as shameful to trivialize this life by supposing that a better one will follow … they lament the false optimism of an afterlife with a system of future rewards and punishments that encourages complacency about suffering and death in this life. But freethinkers, like other human beings, continually hope for a better future. Their hope, while not extending beyond the grave, yet persists as long as life persists, for life is hope. (emphasis added) Freethinkers do not expect to ever see again their loved ones who have died. But, as with believers in an afterlife, their memories of their loss remain with them as a comfort and remembrance.
And this…
Their greatest attachment and commitment is to truth, and to learning to know and do what is right. They are honest with themselves, and with others. They prefer to form their opinions based on fact and evidence, but are not afraid of making mistakes, and learning from them. For they know that human beings aren’t born with their beliefs, nor can honest people truly believe in something by sheer force of will or ‘faith.’ Freethinkers submit themselves to facts and reason, following humbly wherever and to whatever they are led. They speak their minds, and are unafraid of saying, ‘I don’t know.’ And in return for all of this, freethinkers respect themselves, they have sympathy for their fellow human beings, and they lay legitimate claim to the best and noblest of what the human condition offers.
One of the things my counselor has said is that the spiritual is a part of myself I must explore. And I have been. I have tried to speak openly and honestly with my friends and family. I have been reading about spirituality in many forms and have found nothing more true for me than these words above on the nature of being a freethinker.
I will continue to seek the truth and try and understand the worlds inside and outside myself. I may yet come to other conclusions about the nature of reality and existence for myself. My heart is open and honest.
In being open and honest, it hurt yesterday, because my convictions are at odds with the convictions of the woman I am in love with. I love her even more for she has considered her options and has thought about how she looks at the world, and desires a faith. If it is so that we are at odds on this issue, then so be it. We must, each of us — “to thine own self be true”. For myself, I am pleased to be in love with someone so whole, so real and so authentic.
Who can say what tomorrow will bring?
Onward
Food for Religious Thought 2002 Oct 09
» John S. Spong’s column The Bishop’s Voice. He also wrote Christianity Must Change Or Die
» The Center for Progressive Christianity
» The Jesus Seminar: inquiry after the voice of Jesus
Gail suggests I look at C S Lewis’ book Mere Christianity… 2002 Oct 09
More food for thought. Thanks to all who are reading and contributing!
Mrs. Crawford 2002 Oct 09
We had a good lunch and good conversation. And hey, we got free brownies at Oscar’s because they missed something on our order. What’s that you say? Should you be eating brownies Joe? Aren’t you losing weight? Well, yes. I’m currently at pre-separation weight minus 70 pounds. That’s 70 pounds in 5 months. Weight loss has slowed, but I’m fitter than I used to be by several million miles. Still much weight to lose.
Well, fit other than a cold which is coming on me now, Racquetball is still excellent for my activity. Two times a week and very fun, racquetball is. Talk like Yoda I will now stop.
I AM BEHIND 2002 Oct 14
Yes, this blog has not been updated. Patience, sil vous plait, por favor, bitte, please.
Catch Up Ball: Miscellany 2002 Oct 15
Is it Live? New Cold Fusion code snippet on my evolt space: Between Times Example in Cold Fusion.
This Herman Goering Quote is chilling (from Erin)
On 10/10/2002 my Mom wrote in an email:
You have a great day and look at the beauty in everything and everyone.
Is there any nicer wish someone could wish someone?
Interesting: The Political Oddsmaker (from John)
Fascinating: Was McDonaldland plagiarized from the old “H. R. Pufnstuf” kids’ TV show? (via Mitch Wagner)
Flattering: There is a new inbound link from someone on the faculty at RISD, she has a great presentation on typography on Introduction to Graphic Design Index page.
And some new spiritual books, these from John, he advises If I could only have two books to read, it would be these two!:
» The Portable World Bible
» Practical Cogitator: Or the Thinker’s Anthology
This review makes me want to see Punch-Drunk Love
Too late: American Historians Speak Out ‘Consulting’ Congress On Iraq Is Not Enough
Wonderful Article About Defense Strategy post-911
Failsafe: On September 11, passengers armed only with cellphones and courage succeeded where a multibillion-dollar military failed. Does their achievement mean that 50 years of American defense policy is all wrong?
excerpt: For the past year, we have spoken unceasingly about the events of Sept. 11. But one aspect of that day has not yet been the topic of open discussion: the difficulty we had as a country defending ourselves. As it happened, the only successful defense was carried out not by our professional defense apparatus but by the passengers on Flight 93, which crashed in Pennsylvania. The purpose of this essay is to examine the failures of Sept. 11, and the one success, and ask if they suggest that something in our defense arrangements needs to be changed.
Stay tuned.
I think Charles is back in business with his blog… 2002 Oct 18
Congrats and Salutations! 2002 Oct 18
The Onion A/V Club asks notable folks… 2002 Oct 18
Lura says… 2002 Oct 18
Let me think about it. If folks have ideas about how to handle this, or want to be notified if something happens with this, please drop me a note. I have some possible ideas – probably a simple notification list that sends out notes on some regular basis that it’s happening, and by soliciting feedback in the form of locations or whatever… So many ideas, so little time…
L… 2002 Oct 19
On Sunday Erin and Jenny and I went to Los Angeles. It was quite fun. On the way I some Wireless (WiFi aka 802.11b aka AirPort) Access Point scanning. Driving north on Interstate 5 (we call them “freeways” in California) I turned on my clamshell iBook in Orange County. MacStumbler almost immediately started alerting me to APs. I was quite surprised that driving at freeway speeds we would spot any. Obviously at freeway speeds there was no time to join any of these networks and use their net connections, but it was enough time to “see” them. So this makes me want to do more “war-driving” – just to see what’s out there. Supposedly the government wants to make this illegal, but it’s illegal to use computer resources – wardriving strikes me more like mapping or exploring. It’s certainly not nefarious when practiced by someone who is merely curious.
Anyway, we went to several places, here are my brief experiences of them:
World Book & News: Greatest newsstand ever, still. On Cahuenga just off Hollywood Blvd. No real finds, but it was cool.
Amoeba Music: Massive new record store (part of a small chain) on Sunset and Cahuenga – near the site of the Cinerama Dome. Great record store with excellent new and used sections – lots of DVDs, including import/non-US encoded/region discs. Definitely a place I’d return to. They had some Zappa vinyl that made me think twice about abandoning vinyl. I have no turntable – so who needs vinyl now? Maybe when I make my millions.
Canter’s Deli: Pastrami delights. Classic.
Aron’s Records: On North Highland Avenue North of Sunset Blvd, worth a visit. Much smaller than Ameoba, but with great quality.
Giant Robot: West of the 405 on Sawtelle. Very excellent and clever merchandise, but too expensive.
Santa Monica Promenade: Always fun for a visit.
Hennessey + Ingalls: Great art & architecture bookstore. Also in the category of “when I get rich, I’ll buy lots” – just looking for books I can look for at the library this trip.
It was a great trip.
Other Geeky Stuff 2002 Oct 20
» PEAR::DB
» PEAR::MDB
» Metabase
» AdoDB
OS X
O’Reilly Mac OS X Conference Report from the estimable TidBITS
Mozilla Development
The book Creating Applications with Mozilla is available online.
Woz
This Steve Wozniak article is worth a read. Woz was a prime mover at the beginning of Apple‘s history. Very interesting cat.
Kynn!
This review of Kynn’s CSS in 24 Hours is pretty cool. Go Kynn!
OSX Shareware
AudioHijack is an excellent piece of shareware that will let you record whatever audio is playing on your Mac to an AIFF file. Very cool.
ArtLung.com Site Changes 2002 Oct 20
Back in early September, Ben Forta, Cold Fusion guru spoke at UCSD on Cold Fusion MX and other things. I’ve (uh, finally) written up my notes and they may be of value to someone. Feel free to check them out at:
It may, perhaps, possibly, be of interest to folks out there. The most compelling stuff was definitely the web services capabilities of CFMX. And Forta is a great speaker overall.
Updated Words
My piece on words called I am a Frank Zappa Fan was updated with several excellent links to painlessly find out more about Frank.
RSS
I’ve added an RSS XML addition to the blog. It’s not strictly speaking a full RSS Feed but it will do for now as it will update when the blog is updated.
Referers
The blog has had a referers page for a while. Now the home page of ArtLung.com has its own Referers Page.
New Header
Regular readers may have noted the new header on the blog which was put in place on 18 Oct 2002. It features an image of my very own right iris as taken by Jon Miles of Miles Research. It’s really nifty to get closeup images of your own iris like that.
San Diego Bloggers 2002 Oct 21
The San Diego Bloggers page has been modified a but more, including sidebars for Netscape 6-7/Mozilla, Macintosh Internet Explorer, and a bookmarklet for Windows Internet Explorer. The same old badges are there, and there are even more great San Diego area blogs to browse. Check them out now!From the Faith Department 2002 Oct 21
See also: Religion for previous thoughts on this.
Free Photos 2002 Oct 21
Oddball Comics 2002 Oct 22
Distributed Disruptive Intelligence 2002 Oct 22
(Reminds me of the line Swarm! Swarm! from Rushmore.)
Bad Design For Government Agencies 101 2002 Oct 22
Un-Copyright 2002 Oct 22
QuickBooks SDK 2002 Oct 22
Warms the Cockles of My Heart 2002 Oct 22
Culture [Warning, Adult Concepts Herein] 2002 Oct 22
Personal Brief 2002 Oct 22
Still and all, I am a very lucky man.
With love,
Onward.
Quote of the Day 2002 Oct 24
You know, I believe we have two lives.
Roy Hobbs:
How … what do you mean?
Iris Gaines:
The life we learn with and the life we live with after that.
from The Natural
Cool Macromedia Secret Product On Deck? 2002 Oct 24
To which I think aloud:
I saw and heard Ben Forta speak here in San Diego last month and he referred to a new Macromedia product in beta — the intriguing description was of a product:
“in between Word and Excel”
Could it be that Dori and Ben are referring to the same thing?
Feel great, less filling 2002 Oct 29
YouMayBeNext.com 2002 Oct 30
“a company in San Diego, Pangea Intellectual Properties (PANIP LLC) is suing companies all across the country. They claim that if you use graphical and textural information on a video screen for purposes of making a sale, then you are infringing on their patent. US Patent No 5,576,951.
And if you accept information to conduct automatic financial transactions via a telephone line & video screen, you’re infringing on their patent. US Patent No. 6,289,319″
Read the linked news articles to assess legitimacy.
It’s also interesting that the list of known defendents include none in California.
Anyone know about these Pangea people? Looks like www.panip.com/ is down. (via web405 list)
Random San Diego Blogger 2002 Oct 30
About Racquetball 2002 Oct 30
Ouch; Christina News 2002 Oct 30
All Kinds of Lab Stuff 2002 Oct 30
Articles and code snippets for web geeks: some new, some old, all have been enhanced lately. Bookmark it and tell your friends!
» Change Form Input Direction
» Auto-Calculator
» Dropdown / Select Box Navigation with JavaScript
» Onmouseover in a TR tag
» Changing the color of a form element when it’s blank
» Mozilla Rounded Corners
» HTML Tags for Java Applets, circa 1999
» Dropdown Navigation Where Only Some Links Open New Windows
